BROKEN HEARTS AND WAILING DREAMS

The darkness is here again. It’s gathering, crowding at the base of my throat, and if I look down for even a moment, I will drown. I think it’s my fault that it’s here this time; maybe I invited it by calling its name, and maybe I roll around in it a little; it’s comfortable and has room for self-deprecation and pity parties. Every year, it comes and slowly winds itself around me, squeezing until I’m gasping for air and blinded by its thick fog. 

Ghosts of Christmases past and shards of broken dreams poke at my insides: the ghosts taunting with memories of what was and images of what could have been, and the dreams wailing, mourning their brokenness. I have felt the pain of two kinds of heartbreak: one from romantic misadventures, that feels as though someone is tap-dancing in sturdy shoes on the best part of your insides. Or like someone is messing with some controls in the upper left part of your anatomy. At least you know where to mend. The other one, is the pain of broken dreams; you’re shattered in so many pieces and scattered in so many directions that you don’t even know what or where to look after. Every year, hope comes to mend me, leaving less pieces than it found each time, and each time, life comes with its baseball bat right after and runs it through my dreams again, right in the middle.

But I won’t look down this time. I’ll keep my head above the darkness. I won’t look down.

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  • #broken heart #broken dreams #depression #darkness
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21ST CENTURY 49ERS

Please Read: 21ST CENTURY 49ERS

gold-rush-49erandmuleWhere I grew up, the last three months of the year are known for the harsh cold they bring. I remember occasions when my face wrinkled like the skin on an old woman’s neck; you dared not powder your face and you better have a jar of Vaseline in your purse. One of the things that surprised me when I first moved to Lagos was the year-round heat. Before you even get to the Mowe – Ibafo area, you…

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  • #1800s #49ers #california #development #gold rush #growth #ibadan #lagos #land #non-fiction #South West #tourism
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A CREATURE OF MOONLIGHT

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Author: Rebecca Bahn

Published: May 6, 2014

Publisher: Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Children’s Book Group

Format: E-book

Genre: Fantasy, Young Adult

ISBN13: 9780544110090

Blurb

Marni is half-woman, half-dragon. Both sides of her are constantly at war and pulling her in different directions: the dragon in her draws her into the woods, a place that is out of bounds to the villagers, and when the…

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  • #books #creature #dragons #fantasy #moonlight #review #woods #young adult
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I LOVE YOU…I THINK

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Hey guys, I know it’s been a while. Found this stuff I wrote in December 2012. Let me know your thoughts?

I think I love you
But I don’t know….
Maybe I love the idea of loving you
Of loving,
Of belonging and having
Of giving and surrendering
All and heart
I think that’s what I miss

I think of you a lot
I know you’re hurting, I think you’re hurting
And I want to make it better
I know you’re not…

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  • #doubt #feelings #love #relationships
  • 2 months ago

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

The free bird leaps
on the back of the wind
and floats downstream
till the current ends
and dips his wings
in the orange sun rays
and dares to claim the sky.

But a bird that stalks
down his narrow cage
can seldom see through
his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings
with fearful trill
of the things unknown
but longed for still

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  • #I know why the caged bird sings #maya angelou #poetry
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COVER REVEAL: THE BOOK OF BART BY RYAN HILL

COVER REVEAL: THE BOOK OF BART

I’m excited to reveal the cover for Book of Bart, a young-adult, humorous, satirical paranormal-fantasy by Ryan Hill, which is scheduled for release May 22nd, 2014.

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About Book of Bart:

Genre: young-adult, humorous, satirical paranormal-fantasy

Publisher: Curiosity Quills Press

Date of Publication: May 22nd, 2014

Cover Artist: Conzpiracy Digital Arts

Blurb:

Only one thing is so powerful, so…

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  • #book of bart #books #cover reveals #curiosity quills #fantasy #ryan hill #satire
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Review: FIVE OUT OF THE PIT BY HOLLI ANDERSON

|Review: FIVE OUT OF THE PIT BY HOLLI ANDERSON

FiveOutofthePitGenre: Urban Fantasy

Source: Free Copy from Publisher

Format: E-book

Published: March 31, 2014

Publisher: Curiosity Quills Press

ISBN: 9781620075104

BLURB (From Goodreads)

The Five find their way to Moab, Utah where, before they’re even settled in, evil finds them. As Paige fights to keep from succumbing to the pull of an Incubus that has her marked as his next conquest, Johnathan seeks to find…

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  • #curiosity quills #five out of the pit #holli anderson #review #urban fantasy
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BOOK REVIEW: DEATH, THE DEVIL AND THE GOLDFISH BY ANDREW BUCKLEY

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Genre: Fantasy

Source: Free copy from the author

Publisher: Curiosity Quills Press

Published: December 4, 2012 

Format:E-book

ISBN: 978-1-62007-124-3 

BLURB (from Goodreads)

From the Bahamas to Heathrow airport, to the rain soaked streets of London the dead have ceased dying.  This is inconvenient for a number of reasons but what’s the real reason behind the chaos? In London we find Nigel…

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  • #andrew buckley #curiosity quills #death #review #the devil and the goldfish #urban fantasy
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